I am Dream

you see, it's a love hate relationship with bike lesson. having to repeat lesson does not make me any happy and i feel absolutely upset when i'm told that i have to repeat my lessons. so far, i've yet to pass the first time except the FIRST lesson. somehow i have to repeat and it makes me wonder if i should continue learning because:

1) would i ride after getting the license?

2) would i actually buy the vespa to ride?

but i'm already like 1/4 there. Yeah, I supposed so but hearing instructors telling you, "you've failed and you have to repeat" doesn't seem very ego-nourishing. not like i've never fail but it's just not a good, awesome, fantastic feeling.

it's not.

i wonder why do i take failure so hard. sometimes it doesn't make any sense, like "fail fail lah" right? no, i can't. i don't want to fail.

people must think i'm crazy that having the license to drive, why should i pick up the license to ride?

all for that vespa.

yet, would this vespa dream get lost in the midst of having to repeat and failing modules after modules and even perhaps failing many times (i've heard of someone who failed 7 times) for the traffic police test?

we'll see.